>Enjoying the experience

28 12 2010

>Again, lack of posts. Writing is slowly getting put on the back burner. Though I should really be paying more attention to this aspect of my life. I am trying to understand the direction my life is taking, and I am unsure of what type of Master’s program to apply for in the next couple years. Next year though, I am looking into going abroad and actually SEEING the world. I know a lot of people saw this movie, Eat, Pray, Love but the book is phenomenal. I guess it’s what started this whole new though process of refinding my passion.

While I am enjoying the work I am doing now, I am also missing being in WI. I miss my friends and I miss what I had there. My two year relationship is over and I’m having a hard time. And around this time of the year, it’s hard to not miss the people who you love. But just like the heroine of the movie, I was just unhappy with where I was a year ago. In school, not sure where my future was going, in a relationship where I love the other so much but I just couldn’t figure out what I wanted. And I still don’t know now. I want these next years to be that, learning what I want. I don’t have the resources to fund spending a year just traveling, so I’m hoping to get into a teach English as a second language program.

Yet though, I am making great friends here and now, I couldn’t have passed this experience up for anything. I feel like this year is my first part of my story. Taking a year to give back. While at times I wish it was more hands on and I saw more of the difference, I know that I am doing a lot of good. I’m learning a lot as well being at this school and working with this program. So maybe the first word in my own version of Eat, Pray, Love  is Serving.

I feel that the volunteer work I do right now is helping me look at what I got as a child. While this private school is filled to the brim with uppity brats, there are the few that I have gotten to know that do volunteer work because it makes them feel good and they love doing it. They don’t do it for recognition anymore, they are not doing it to make their college applications look better, they are not doing it because their parents are making them, they are doing it because they want to. Of course,  some of them volunteer because of those reasons and while they are not bad reasons, I had the same reason for volunteering in high school, those students are just not as excited about it. The students who have that passion are great to work with and inspire me. That inspiration is great and does help when I’m sitting at my desk staring at my computer screen and wondering what the heck I should be doing! It’s funny to think and go back to where I was in 2006, waiting to hear back from colleges and trying to to figure out what I wanted to do. Did I want to go into architecture? Did I want to go into journalism? Did I just want to go into English?  I had no idea! I thought college would help me pick a passion, but it didn’t.

So now, I’m cynical about finding a passion for my life and maybe it’s time that my passion just be living my life! Why not? I have nothing (besides an empty bank account) keeping me from living my life to it’s fullest. Serving is helping fill a hole I have, fulfilling my need to give back. This year isn’t really all about me, it’s about what I can do to make something better. I need to just enjoy this experience because I don’t want to look back next year and think I should have done something differently. It’s time to just enjoy life.


>Slow at the grind from 7:30 til 4

4 10 2010

>I never thought that I would be more exhausted from sitting at a desk all day to running between classes and work. I also didn’t think I would be passing out every night by 10, since I’m getting up by 5:30 in the morning.
It’s not that bad, I’m sure I’ll be getting used to it sooner than later, even if almost two months have gone by since I started! Thankfully, I’m getting more projects every week so I’m no longer dawdling my time away as I was for the past several weeks. I’m thoroughly enjoying my experience as I have gotten to know my fellow VISTAs and see more of New Hampshire.
Who ever thought though school should be at 730 in the morning is a masochist. I have never really understood why it has to be so gosh darn early! I remember being up by 5:45 to make my 6:50 bus in  VA, and getting up almost just as early for high school in MI. It is interesting…it never seemed to be so hard to wake up in the morning!
I have also started developing a taste for coffee (yuck) every morning, except today thankfully. I just hope I don’t turn into my mother who gets up an hour early every morning in order to drink her two cups of coffee before work. I like my sleep.

Life seems to be moving along very slowly, as work has not been very busy for me. I am hoping, and that prayer has been answered, for my work to pick up. I’m thankful to have two separate supervisors who have projects for me to do, I’m just hoping I don’t have weeks of activity and then a month of waiting.

Well I hope the fall is treating everyone well!

When one door opens…

2 08 2010

Well, I’m back!

It’s been an exhausting past couple months, but I’m ready and just about to start my next big adventure…being an AmeriCorps Vista member!

I have a placement in New Hampshire, and I’m super excited to have gotten my placement. I went on several interviews, three over the phone, four in person, and another one through email(Yes, an interview via email…it was weird). It seemed though, even though most people who apply for a Vista placement are able to find one, my journey just seemed to be never ending.

I applied for several placements in Wisconsin, so I could stay near my boyfriend, but all of them were swiped quickly and I had to venture towards New Hampshire, so I could live with my parents and save money. I had several sites contact me about placements only to end up getting an email saying they already filled the position. It was disheartening and getting to actually be quite annoying; none of these places had actually interviewed me and the contact I was making with them was minimal. It got even worse once I started doing interviews.

Now let’s go back, I actually interviewed with eight different places. The first one, the timing wasn’t going to work with starting and my returning back to New Hampshire. Also the fit wasn’t quite right. This was the email interview pretty much, slightly awkward and all. But I thought to myself, “There are ton of other places and I’m sure more openings will happen and I’ll get calls from other programs.” I did get called by another program, and it was a lot closer to my parents so I could have ended up commuting with my dad. I talked and tried setting up an interview in person, but they ended up filling the position prior hand. I was still in Wisconsin, so I wasn’t to worried.

Now fast forward to the end of May and early June. I had moved back home and my first week alone, I had two interviews and a third set up with a program that has a variety of different placement. My first interview went alright, and the program director had been emailing and calling me so often, I was sure that I would hear back from them by the end of the week. The second one that week was very rough, I didn’t get the right feel for the program. I heard back from them via email a week later saying I didn’t get the spot.  The following week I had a third interview with another program, and they got back to me a week later. I was super excited after this interview, I felt I had made a great impression and I had made a connection with the supervisor. When I found out I hadn’t gotten this position I was starting to panic, I hadn’t heard back yet from the first people I had interviewed with and I had no idea what I was going to do. In order for me to start with AmeriCorps in August, I needed a program to accept me before July 1st.

I had three more interviews after that, one more in person and two over the phone. The one in person was not going to work, I didn’t have the background needed for it. The other two were both for programs that had just gotten approved  as placements, so I was excited. Luckily I did get accepted by one of them, and took them up on the job immediately. I let the other people I interviewed with know I had chosen this group…I never did hear back from the first people I interviewed in person with, which was really disappointing to me.

I’m incredibly happy and lucky to have gotten this position. What have I learned? How to make an impression and continuing to hone my interviewing skills. I’ve also learned the cut throat-ness of competitiveness these programs. A lot more people are applying to do these volunteer programs and there are people with masters and doctorates going after these positions. Fewer undergrads are getting into Vista which is scaring me. I hope that I rock this out!

What have I learned? That no matter how many interviews you go on, doesn’t mean you’ll get a job, and that even if the only people who had offered me a job was a group I wasn’t interested in, I would still have taken it.

>New post!

1 08 2010

>Well, it certainly has been a while since I posted! I had been busy figuring out a lot of things, relationships, friendships, and where the heck i was going to be once I graduated. I am very happy and lucky to have been given a position in AmeriCorps Vista in Manchester, NH. I am excited and nervous, since I’m starting in about two weeks. I have training and such coming up, so I’ll be meeting all the other Vistas in the program with me. But here is a brief synopsis of what has been going on in my life!

1. I graduated from Marquette
2. I moved in with my parents, and was there for a month…
3. I have been working for my aunt in IL, taking care of my cousins…I’m trying to earn money so that I can buy a new laptop since unfortunately my Maccy is dying 😦
4. I have a job! YAY! I’m super excited about it. Here is a small run down of what it entails
 I will be working under the volunteer coordinator at a school in Manchester(I’m not giving to much specific specs, don’t want anyone stalking or me getting the school in trouble). I will be put in charge of a portion of the volunteer opportunities for both the middle school and high school, and I’ll be in charge of coordinating the annual Habitat for Humanity trip the high school does. I’ll also be working with a program that resides in the school, called BreakThrough, which helps under privileged kids with school work and helps them stay on track to go to college. I already saw what a day looks like for their summer camp, which is how they start off the program in sixth grade. It follows them up through high school. I’ll be helping with workshops, getting volunteers, and coordinating activities to get the kids excited and focused.
I am super excited to be starting soon and with my last week at my aunts. I was able to spend time with my boyfriend( 🙂 ) and see friends who I hadn’t had the chance to say bye to really when I left at the end of May. Living at my parents for the first month was super boring, but having now joined a gym, I am getting back into shape.

Now here are the ideas that I want to do with this blog. I have another, which I am going to be using to focus on building a writing repertoire and less of a day to day blog. That blog had originally been designed as a “Lessons Learned” and I’d like to continue it as such. As I graduated with my Writing Intensive Degree, I want to possibly use this blog to post stories/ chapters and also as more serious writing of essays and such. I would love to get into a MFA Creative Writing program, but I need to work on it first. I think I will start by posting a story I wrote awhile here in the next couple of days and then see how many people post feedback. I’d love for comments from some of the readers I have!

Anyway, this is starting to ramble so I must be getting hungry! I’ll occasionally post on how my work is going and what I’m doing, but not so often I hope!

Enjoy your summer’s everyone! It’s almost over!

>new direction

29 07 2010


I have now successfully graduated college and am a proud member of AmeriCorps Vista! I will continue writing(now that I have internet and more time). I hope all is well and I will keep intouch!

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The lessons I’ve learned

15 04 2010

As a soon to be graduate from Marquette University I have come up with my top ten list of lessons I have learned through my classes or outside the classroom. There may not be the “greatest lesson of all” learned, but all are very helpful insights to a very hectic, wonderful, scary time in my life. Some will be funny, some will be sad, but all of them are things I’ve learned.

1. Classes where your teacher talks about his hippy past and drug use will always fuel you to think that the 70s and 80s would have been a lot more fun.

2. Living vicariously through your friends’ dramatic dating life may be entertaining but has its downside. This will lead to nights filled with take out, wine, or complete bitching. No homework or acknowledgment of classes in the morning will occur. Also, you will also gain the 10 lbs break up weight gain with them, and then endure being their gym partner as they lose that 10 lbs!

3. Your high school friends will slowly and surely take a back seat to your life. Unless you decide to go to school in the same state or same college as them. No matter how tight you are with them or how many times you visit, you will drift apart if you don’t live in the same state as they do.

4. Your “I almost died” stories will increase. These will be humorous and most likely followed with “I almost got caught by the cops!” stories.

5. The best classes will always be the ones where you actually GO TO CLASS. As your number of semesters increase, you will most likely take some(or several) opportunities to skip. The more classes you miss, the more likely your grade and understanding of class decreases. One way to go to class, get a crush on either the professor or your study buddy, that way you will want to attend class!

6. Online dating in college will only lead to your friends needing to be bailed out of the most ludicrous places and will always be brought up at the bar about how one time…

7. Sometimes your professors will be really creepy. Sometimes they will be really cool. And other times they will be heinous assholes who decide to fail you because you got sick at the end of the semester, was in the hospital and you couldn’t make it to the final, even though you had a note from the doctor saying you were in the hospital so you obviously couldn’t make it to the final. That’s when you go the head of their department and beg/plead for them to override the professor/ get your favorite teacher and advisor to help out.

8. Classes may at first seem mandatory, but by the end you will believe them to be more an elective option to learning the material. This is when you remember whether or not your teacher takes attendance every day.

9. Your friends will be one of your greatest assets throughout your stay in college.

10. Never underestimate the idea of FREE LAUNDRY.

>Health, Diet, and Exercise Bookshelf

14 04 2010

>After finishing my applications for VistaCorps, I have been working hard on my classes(well kinda) and I have been with my friends more and more.
My job on campus has been winding down and it’s the employee of the year banquet coming up. While getting our employee their little job well done gift, I was at Barnes and Nobles killing time. I was just wandering around trying to find some things to get my friends, when I came across the  Exercise/Diet/Health section. There were at least 3 full bookshelves that were just for Diet alone, one for Health, and then another two for just Exercise books. As I traversed through the aisles, I was just astounded by all the books. I am not the healthiest eater, the most fit athlete, or even an athlete but it just astounds me by the vast amount of books out on this subject. I thought that maybe one of these would be able to help me get into a routine, but why are there so many? I then started trying to find books that would be geared towards college students, since let’s face it, we tend to eat the worst out of any age demographic. But there really isn’t any book besides one I saw. I realized though that a book isn’t always going to help every person, but the extent of this is gross.
The fact that there were so many different books amazes me by the sheer fact that the variety doesn’t really change, except if you are choosing a specific diet. Each book basically says the same thing…”Work out daily, eat less, and make healthy choices for food.” How do they really think consumers will be able to choose with all of those different books? And most of the time, the reader isn’t able to keep themselves disciplined enough to stick to the diet plan.

It just makes me angry because if these diets even worked, then why would there need to be another book on dieting?! HMMMM?!